Today, my wife sent me a very nice message. She said that she had been learning about Brian Wilson (of “The Beach Boys”). Apparently, he had been given a diagnosis of schizophrenia, but when he admitted that hearing voices was his only symptom, his diagnosis was changed.
My wife suggested that, because my main symptom is also hearing voices, that I might also not be schizophrenic.
I had this moment. What would life be like? What if I could regard myself as normal, as fully functional? I felt my ego beginning to swell.
Reality settled in pretty quickly. According to the voices symptom, if they constitute a steady pattern, that connotes a psychosis. And, to be honest, for me, they do.
When I am alone, I sense voices in my mind continuously.
What a nice thing for my wife to say. It gave me hope.
For a strange moment, I peered through the veil, and saw myself as maybe being healthy.
