In 2008, I was living in isolation, coping with schizophrenia, in part, by creating music and sound art.
I decided to craft a drone release based on shortwave sounds. I called this release “SubDialogue”:
Listening back, the tracks make a strong analogy with my illness. They are raw, gritty, visceral. Many of the pieces contain voices that have been altered. The muted vocal sounds mirror the chatter that goes on in the back of my mind.
When I am hearing voices, the impression is as if my mind was acting as a sort of radio, perhaps indeed like a shortwave radio– capturing voices from the air and channeling them back and forth.
“SubDialogue” was not received well critically. One popular critic derided it soundly, intimating that it was not really music.
To a schizophrenic, “SubDialogue” is music– it’s the very sound that goes on in one’s mind, beneath things and through it all.
I am still very proud of this release, and I was happy that Suggestion Records released it in 2008, and that Tape Safe released the remastered tracks later on in 2015.
I did not fully understand this at the time, but as I created sound art, I could not help but to capture, in part, the truth of how things were.