I have written about the disjointed nature of modernity, and the struggles I have as a schizophrenic, from time to time, navigating between different environments.

I find sudden changes to be jarring.

One remedy to this problem might be a sense of continuity. If I could feel that one hour was much like the previous hour, one day, one week, one year similar to the ones before, that would help to prevent me from being jolted by modernity’s changes.

That would be an attitudinal change. It would require faith– that things will be ok. It would also require me to ignore this constant sense of transformation– that I am continually going through metamorphoses, and so is the world around me.

How often do I hear about the death of someone I know? A familiar store or business closes? I have to move, or change jobs?

In the past I have made life changes like I was changing a pair of shoes.

When I am with sane, healthy people I notice their sense of calm– and I think that their belief in the consistency of their experiences helps them to feel this way.

Can I learn this? Can I adopt it?

Author: mystified13

Sole member of Mystified and Mister Vapor.

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