For most of my life, I wanted to be a painter. My wife encouraged me, a couple of years ago, to purchase an acrylic paint kit. I have been practicing my art since, and have developed some special techniques.
One is to use spray paint, together with acrylic paints. I don’t intend to rip off the notions of graffiti artists, but I really do like the way graffiti looks, and particularly spray paint.
Another technique involves what I call “Dream Symbols”.
Dream Symbols are shapes or symbols that seem to suggest something vaguely textual, but are indecipherable.
They are a good representation of my early experiences with schizophrenia. For several years, I found myself unable to easily decode many of society’s taboos and signs. I tended to miss subtle references or innuendos, especially involving things like sexuality, race, money and power. I think, in a way, I was pushing this kind of input away, refusing to deal with it.
Perhaps this was partly because, as a schizophrenic, I did not accept myself and my place in this world. If I correctly interpreted society’s “symbols”, I would have to admit to my reduced and partially incapacitated situation.
So, my “Dream Symbols” paintings and prints depict my hazy and confused interpretations of the communications I was receiving from the world. By encrypting them, I protected myself from them.